Here’s to Life
It’s 2:45 a.m. and I’m more than a little hyped for the hour. (You’re talking to someone who’s normal bed time is around 10:30). I just went to the midnight premiere of Eclipse and as ridiculous as this sounds I can’t stop thinking about it. I also have a lot of thoughts floating around in my head that I’ve been meaning to blog, so here is insight into my mish-mash.
Team Edward vs. Team Jacob
Two years ago when Twilight was the biggest thing to drop onto the earth, I was completely against it. I thought it sounded ridiculous and the biggest waste of my time to read. I had much better books to read that would teach me and invoke serious thought. (“But it’s a looooove story!” I can’t tell you how many times I heard that) My roommates and I even banned it from our apartment: no Twilight paraphernalia or talk, at all.
Fast forward a year later when I was forced against my will to watch the first movie- ridiculous and probably one of the worst movies I have ever seen. However, part of me was intrigued, so I promised a friend I would go see New Moon in theaters with her.
I walked in a skeptic. I walked out a twi-hard. My roomies from the previous year couldn’t believe it, and wouldn’t let me live it down (they still won’t). I saw the movie in theaters three times and began acting like a love-struck teenager when either Taylor Lautner or Robert Pattinson was seen or mentioned. I had decided that I was on Team Jacob (Taylor Lautner, the werewolf, for all you non-Twilighters). Friends told me it was because they weren’t portraying Edward correctly in the film, which may be true, he’s just too depressing and pale for my taste.
Which all leads upto tonight. I LOVE movies and LOVE going to movie premieres, so I thought the Eclipse midnight premiere would be an experience, and it definitely was. I had just one problem. I’m almost positive I was the only person in the theatre that hasn’t read the books. Thus, I’m sitting on the edge of my seat, heart pounding, during the battles of flesh and the battles of love. I would gasp and get wide-eyed, when no one else even flinched. The plot was no surprise to them, just to me.
I’m very glad I haven’t wasted my time reading the books. I am getting much joy and excitement waiting for the next installment of the movie, not knowing what’s coming. I can also say I’m not too much of a twi-hard since I haven’t read the books. (Well, let’s be honest…..)
My Future Career
After my post about acting as a passion, I received several very concerned texts about what I was going to do with my life. Apparently I left everyone hanging. Which, in all honesty, not even I knew what I was going to do. I was left hanging.
I’ve always prided myself in not worrying about the future. I worry about everyday things a lot, way more than I should, but I’ve never been one to worry about what will happen after college or how much money I will have or how my life will turn out. I’ve always had a peace about it, knowing God has already made my plans, so why worry?
After writing that post I thought back on other posts I had written, about how I wanted to mentor students, how I wanted to write something that affected people and now how I want to act. It seems like I don’t know what I want. And I don’t. But that’s okay. I don’t have to know. I trust that God will lead me where he wants me and that I will be most affective with the talents He has given me. I can’t, however, sit around and just wait for him to shove the perfect opportunity my way. I need to keep stepping through open doors until He closes one. Thus, I will mentor, I will write and I will find a way to act. And when he leads me to the position He wants me in, I will know. In the mean time, why try and figure out His plan?
As it turns out, I have gotten my week of sickness I’ve so desperately desired in the past, and I know even more now that I never ever want this again. I’ve literally come home every afternoon, taken a nap, then watched 24 pretty much until it was time to go to sleep again. I’ve interspersed other things I needed to do in between, but I’ve felt so terrible that all I want to do is lay down. I feel so unproductive, so useless, but I know I need to learn how to be still and let my body heal itself. I’ve also actually been learning a lot through my t.v. watching. Everywhere I go I feel like I’m being watched and snipers surround me in the bushes. However, I feel like I could protect myself in any situation and know not to make the stupid mistakes they make on t.v.
Other things I’ve learned today include: waiting two hours for a movie is the best time for conversation, D.O.D. means Department of Defense, laying out is bad for you while you are sick (and yes, maybe not the best when you are healthy either), the new Harry Potter trailer is incredible, you can always learn something new about someone you thought you knew everything about.