“La Dolce Far Niente”
I have been reminded how therapeutic “nothing” days can be.
You know those times in your life when life is just so hectic and you are swimming and swimming, but you never seem to reach the surface? That’s where I’ve been the past few weeks and it seemed as though not only was I not going anywhere, but rather sinking to the bottom.
And possibly I did hit bottom on the fateful day when my car got towed and various other punishments ensued including finding out I have to go to the Student Ethics board. If you know me at all, you know this would make me upset, but if you really know me, you know this would make me absolutely sick. I’ve always been the perfect student who didn’t get in trouble, and the second I did I lost it. Though my skin has grown a LOT tougher since elementary school, getting in trouble still makes me upset. So on Wednesday when everything was already too overwhelming, the tears came pouring in the Parking and Transit office. When it rains, it pours.
That’s when I stepped back and took a look at my life (thanks to the wise words of someone very dear to my heart). What was I doing? Who was I living for? Why was I letting the troubles of this world weigh on me so heavily? I threw my selfish, stubborn self aside and prayed. and prayed. and prayed.
And just as I had expected, almost instantaneously God released me from this state of war inside myself that had taken hold of who I am and who I want to be.
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28
Let’s get back to today and how wonderful doing nothing can be.
With a peace and inside joy I’ve been longing for, today I’ve: cleaned, prayed, lay on my bed, listened, rejoiced, read- all under the soothing voices of John Mayer, Michael Buble and Jack Johnson.
And though everyone else I know is tailgating and preparing for the first Razorback game of the season, I needed this time to myself to relax and enjoy “La Dolce Far Niente” the sweetness of doing nothing.
This is gorgeous! I’m so happy I stumbled upon your blog. You are such a beautiful, smart, and talented young woman. I loved reading your thoughts!
Take care and love,
September 5, 2010 at 2:20 pm
“if you haven’t cried, your eyes can’t be beautiful” Sophia Loren
September 5, 2010 at 3:01 pm
Why did your car get towed?? And why did you have to go to Student Ethics board? (if you don’t mind me asking)
September 6, 2010 at 9:31 pm